Monday, September 24, 2007 ; 10:30 PMY
i am lost in you
so i guess i kinda screwed up my piano exam today. nothing to be proud of though. it was really costly, thats the worst part..the other thing that i find really retarded is that i've been at this for two years in order to perfect the pieces and scales and whatsoever involved with the piano exam syllabus.i'm horrible at playing the piano, i know. its just not my cup of tea. i feel stupid since i've been at it for 2 years and i'm still this lousy... there's no more excuses for me this time. the only thing good that happened today was that i got to spend some quality time with john and my cousins... yup. i even forgot that i had to teach tuition today. i definitely lack concentration. its dragging me down. i can't seem to accomplish anything properly like before. its like failure after failure these few days. its like i don't know my priorities anymore... its like i can't focus on what i should be doing. hah... that brings me to the topic of studying. was supposed to do that today too. but yea, you guessed it. i didn't.... and now i'm too tired to study after a whole day of activities. i hate failing at what i do. i hate not getting any progress. i hate not being able to focus. period! *sigh*