Wednesday, February 21, 2007 ; 9:55 PMY
i am lost in you
was awoken at 8 today when my mom came into my room to ask some random question at such an ungodly hour... oh man... so damn tired.. well, couldn't sleep after that and went to watch some tv before going out at 11 to meet my baby. his BTT was today.. and i'm glad to say that he passed!!! :) no doubt about it.. knew he could breeze right through it. hmmm.. than had to rush through lunch and then i left for dance class while baby went to changi airport to study.. i trust he did. stupid poly's so tough... but he'll do just fine :) i just have that gut feeling that tells me so. :p
after dance ended, had to rush home to bathe and get ready to leave the house again to meet car. i was on time for once and the our timing couldn't be more perfect. hmmmm...went to TM to get Jaja's farewell gift... nice guy lah.. so we had to get him something.. went to the airport after that to have dinner with him.. last dinner? haha.. sounds so drama!!! but yes, we'll all miss him.. especially cause we got away with everything when we bullied him :) bwhahaha... gave him a HUGE bear!!! (well, ok lah..medium, but enough to scare him cause he'll have to carry it around).. white bear... its him! polar bear...lol..all the jokes. and we ate popeye's!! yum... but all the fast food i've been eating is taking its toll man... shucks..
went over to baby's crib when we got back to evergreen.. went there to hang awhile and to watch the dance floor. seriously, they lacked energy.. maybe they were nervous. but it kinda sucked.. well, most of it.. not that i can do better... i think they've got the techniques(i don't) but they've also got limited expressions!!!
anyway, the day didn't really have a nice closure... i guess maybe i spoiled it and i'm sorry. always seem to screw up the good things in life. its like i'm a jinx. sometimes i wonder why i'm like that really. the word sorry doesn't even cut it. doesn't mean anything to me . so yea, i'm lost... fuck, this sucks.
Your gift to me was the courage to believeUnchanging feelings were always engraved in my heartYour gift to me was warm and gentleBecause it continues to sparkle in my futureSo many times we've stopped, barely able to see itContinuing to run up this narrow, long paththe disappointment, the sadness, the anger.when will it ever be stopped.i need to stop...