Friday, January 12, 2007 ; 10:21 PMY
i am lost in you
this is just "great"...just great..... nothing's really going right now. problems everywhere..its like some disease thats eating me inside out..it sounds sick, i know.. well, i need a cure and fast. cause this really isn't helping. its just making everything worse as days pass.i'm like in a world of my own.. its a feeling of lifelessness. no desire to go out, no desire to talk to people(i'm normally quite good at this as you all know).. when will this all end... i notice that i always just wanna stay home and stare at the four walls... fucking boring pls.. but since i don't feel like doing anything else..haiz.. thats the only thing left to do. i pray this is just a phase i'm going through.. cause its rather psycho.. all the mood swings and unstable emotions.. emotions running wild i suppose? it is taking a toll on people around me..yea..somewhat like that.. i pray it'll end soon..it feels selfish of me to be like this, especially when its affecting him the most.. i know the last thing he needs now is the extra stress.. so i'm gonna do my best.. trust me people.. as the saying goes, you need to help yourself before anyone can help you right?... so yes, i believe the solution is within me :) i just needa dig it out!!!! whahahaha..ok... see? madness coming into place.. well, thats all i have to bitch about today.. just needed to get that off my chest. :)