wHeN iT aLL fAllS ApArT...

2008-12-25T18:38:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!! :P

ok... i'm just being super random... tis the season for lots and lots of food!!!!! tarts!! cake! turkey! ham! woohooo!!!! speaking of which, actually feeling pretty hungry now... hopefully we'll leave the house soon for some scrumptious food :) shall go search the kitchen for whatever i can find now...

2008-12-11T09:47:00.002+08:00

it's been a hell of a long time since i've updated anything here. it's probably cause i'm getting really lazy to update this. lol. so here's me moving my lazy bones to update the blog cause its getting a little sad.

attended john's POP yesterday. so yup. woke up at like 6.30am since his parents were gonna pick me up at 7.30. yes, i take more than 1 hour to prepare normally.. but i'm sure as hell not waking up earlier than that. so rushed through everything and left the house. well, its the first time i've been to tekong and i thought it was pretty ok. decent. but well, like they say, the outside always looks pretty, it's the inside that stinks. according to john and his dad, that is. reached tekong early( 1.5 hrs early to be exact). so we waited... listened to some guy give his speech. i tell you there's something about ppl who talk too much and me. i just automatically fall asleep. haha. i've no idea why. the POP went pretty smoothly. the weather was nice too with the occasional breeze. i really pity the afternoon session POP, i heard it gets really humid. so yup :)

went back to his place after everything and took a little nap cause we were both exhausted.. especially him since he didn't sleep at all. poor cuddles :( hope he slept well last night. after that, we left for orchard. only managed to walk around abit cause his feet were really killing him. i don't blame him though.its tough not sleeping and marching that much. hmmmm... oh well. its all over now, so he can get a good rest :)

ohoh!!!! i bought my very own leather jacket from top shop!!!!!woohoo!!!! lol..sorry, i've been having this leather fetish and i've though about it for a very long time. so i finally bought it!!!! super duper happy now :) hmmmmmm... we had dinner at speghetties(not sure if this is how it's spelt) in paragon with sze, min, joyce and penny :) it was really nice seeing joyce again. lol.. it's been awhile!!!

went home after that so cuddles could get his very much deserved rest!!!! hugs:)
oh yea, did i mention that i finally got my ipod touch???? yayness!!!!!!! :) but i'm still learning how to handle it. so yea. many things to do today, so i probably won't get much time to play around with it. oh well :( soon soon... i'm really in desperate need of time to shop for christmas presents too :( oh man....

2008-11-02T19:22:00.002+08:00

THE BIG WALK IS HERE!!!!!! ok.. correction. it was here. now it's all over and done with. i swear i'm tired. think the scorching heat this morning was a major cause of it too. :( woke up at 5 freaking a.m. in the morning just to drag myself down to suntec city. was supposed to interview some people along the way but they were too damn shy.. so it was a total waste of time.here i am trying to give them their 2 seconds of fame and they were camera shy... fantastic.i only asked them to shout one word... as a GROUP!! i figured they would've felt more at ease that way.. well, apparently not. had to explain to them why they were being interviewed, and after painstakingly explaining things to them, they still shunned the camera. like wtf. give me a break man. i woke up at freaking 5am, rejections and long conversations totally weren't on my to-do list. so i ended up rushing down to suntec and then took the shuttle bus with the other finalists down to the marina barrage where we waited for the first runner to appear... boy oh boy. hahahaha!!! it was freakin funny. but i shan't elaborate on that. it's mean :p had to stand around smiling at people who walked past. then went up to the vip room to catch a break...aircon!!!! i've never been so grateful for some air-conditioning. whoever invented it is a complete saint!!! haha. anyways, we did alot of things. fooled around, went up on stage for some interviews. stupid radio djs fed us to the crowd and starting talking among themselves after awhile. we were freaking sacrifices. my mouth hurts again from too much smiling. thank god one of the people in charge got us down from there.

oh well, nothing much happened after that. just alot of bumming around. finally left the place at about 11-ish? went back to suntec and left for ballet :) the rest of the day was like... eh.. the same as every other sunday except that cuddles came by :) happy me!!!! lol.. till next week then.. i shall try ignoring the fact that i've loads of assignments due... just for tonight that is :)

2008-10-31T20:23:00.002+08:00

safy needs to stop skipping classes. just realised that i don't know alot of the content so far... so that's bad. i'm in deep trouble if this keeps up.
it's like i'm slacking off for what is supposed to be the most important year in university... brilliant me. i seriously need more determination to stay for classes. yes,even those suicidal boring lectures( ahem! FI) .
so here's a goal for myself :) i'm not gonna skip classes for this year anymore!!! lol.. yea, let's see how long i can pull that off without going crazy. well, i'll attend half a class at least... it's still effort! whahaha..

anyways, the big walk is this sunday :) asiaone equipped me with a pretty video cam.. it's damn small !!!! haha... gonna do some video blog about the events that day.. i swear it's gonna be fun.. it's just the timing that sucks..gotta wake up early and be there by 7am!!! arh! that's like just to flag the people off.. then apparently there'll be some bus to bring all of us to the ending point where we'll wait for em :) well, i've NEVER EVER been to the big walk before, so i guess it'll be something new for me.

did i mention that i've got tons of assignments and tutorials due next week that's still undone? congratulations to me!!!! its gonna be one bloody hectic weekend. i knew i should have done all these like 3 weeks ago when we were told about it... smart safy, smart! oh well, time to get down to work :( i'm bloody sick too... i don't get it, i was perfectly fine this morning and yet i had a bad throat and fever when i woke up from my afternoon nap..totally wrong timing to have all these things....sigh...

2008-10-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

first of all, thank you everyone for coming to support me. it really helped me, knowing that you guys wre supporting me all the way.. lol.. so yes, thank you so much for taking the time to come all the way down.. :) and thank you for the chocolates and roses... you guys know who you are :) hugs!!!!!!

aight.so moving on, it's been like one hell of a bloody tiring week... had plenty of rehearsals, fittings, yadah yadah yadah.. and now, it's all finally over. you've no idea how relieved i am. i'm so tired.. yearning for a good night's rest... finally!!!!! wooohooo!!!

anyway, the finals were... well, ok. i pretty much expected the results..so wasn't too suprised... the winner deserved it really :) nice girl :) it was a pretty good experience altogether. even with the early mornings and stupid stilettos, i still enjoyed the company and the experience.. so here's to my once in a life time experience cause i figure i'm not gonna try anything like this anytime soon.. it's too tiring for me and most probably it'll affect my studies... just look at how many darn classes i skipped for this competition. haha.. oh well, no point complaining now :)

i'm off for my beauty sleep now :) my very VERY much deserved beauty sleep :) weeeeeeee......!!!!!

note: wake me up by any means and you'll regret the day you were born. whahahahahh :p

2008-09-25T22:15:00.002+08:00

went swimming with min, sze and kelda today, at kelda's place of course :P was pretty fun actually. min bought some lunch in for us. SUBWAY!!!!! woohoo!!! played pool, fooled around... yadah yadah yadah :) had to rush off for dance after that.. travelled all the way there just for a talk and 2 dry runs... oh well.. last performance is this saturday after all. had nice bitching sessions.. been wanting that for some time now, needed to get many of things off my chest..well, i'm hapy now!!!! whahahaha.. see how happy a little bitching can make you? aight... on a different note, i have 2 freaking consecutive 3 hr lectures tomorrow...that's like 6 hrs of lecture!!!6 hours of sitting in that chair staring at the clock..i swear, time passes so slowly at times like that. wonder what'll happen to me man... oh well... after that i'll have to head down to sph for the new face contest rehearsals.. it's gonna be a freaking long day...

GOOD NEWS!!!!! john's coming out tomorrow!!!!! haha.. so that'll give me motivation to tahan all those gruelling lectures and rehearsals.... lol.. :) till tomorrow then!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

2008-09-13T19:50:00.006+08:00

well, he left for NS today... seems he won't able to come out until the 26th of september sadly. but i guess it can't be helped. i sure am gonna miss the great company and of course my lack of hugs for 2 whole weeks!!!!!!!.. but i'll manage i guess:) been really busy with the dance rehearsals and performances. i'm completely exhausted. as in, totally no energy left in my body. my muscles won't let me move anymore. i still do feel like dancing though, but just to other songs.. i'm sick of the routine already.. i wanna go for my open classes again soon... missing that alot. i need more exposure... yes yes..

anyway, school's starting next week and the people from london sent me some wrong study materials.. now i have to wait for the new batch to arrive again. busy busy busy...

anyway, here are some photos that might interest some of you out there. :p

before...

off it goes!!! :)

AND...just for fun... WALAHH!!!!

2008-09-02T21:41:00.002+08:00

ok. so... i passed all my papers for my first year.. problem is frankly, i've no idea whether i should be jumping around in happiness or drowning in my sorrows. what should i have expected for this exam? i mean, it's different from jc and secondary school in terms of grading and all.. so... where do i really stand in this? are the grades really that fantastic after all? hmmmmm..

outing with john, min, sze and kelda tomorrow.. gonna watch wall-eeeeeeeeeeeeeee... lol..hope it's good :)

2008-08-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

well, these are the photos i've gotten so far.. videos on www.tnp.sg .. go check it out :) i sound super nervous in the video!!!! oh well.. it's an experience..

going for bball training with min tomorrow.. hope it turns out ok since i've lost most of my stamina... hopefully i can still shoot accurately!!!! whahahaha

2008-08-23T20:46:00.002+08:00

oh man, i had these few photos that were on rednano.com but unfortunately, i couldn't get it in time... but john has it on his blog so its ok i guess... i have chinky eyes!!!!! whahahaha.. in the photo at least. i totally don't look like me..
anyways, the individual spreads in the papers are gonna be out next week... hope i'm able to get as much votes as possible :) its $1000 to be won for that. lol.. *hint hint*

dance has left me exhausted.. my body aches all over... but hell! i'm lovin it. abs here i come! might be joining min for one of her bball training sessions to see what it's like... but i hate all the passing and all that.. frankly i really want a match.. but think i've lost alot of stamina since i haven't played in such long long time. nvm.. i shall try next week :) aight... super random post...off to watch a show or something now....

2008-08-06T21:51:00.003+08:00

so this is how today went...
I CAUGHT A PRAWN!!!! yes, i'm proud of myself since i've never done this before...well, john and sze were like pros lah... it may seem simple enough.... but it's actually really hard... fustrating too, especially when the stupid prawn gets loose after the long wait for them to take the bait. arg!!!! we really should go again...it's kinda fun once you've experienced it... but i sure as hell still agree with the easy way: buy them from the damn supermarket... definitely cheaper and faster... but on the other hand, if we catch it ourselves, i guess there's sort of a feeling of accomplishment.. :) think we caught only about 10? or 15? yea, so here I go again... SUPERMARKET FTW!!!!

left the place 3 hours later being 10 bucks poorer... so yup,2 rods for 3 hours.. there were 6 of us btw. super broke now. and it's only the start of the month. went back to john's place to play ball, waited for min and sze to shower.. then we left for astons in gardens :)
i swear the portions there were larger than usual... hmmmm.... oh well, i had my chargrilled chicken!!!! followed by cookies and cream ice cream :) the cookies inside were all mushy though... i think it kinda spoiled it. but the uncle added cookies for me although i swear i was joking about it. didn't really think he'd do it. so i'm a happy happy girl... now i'll just have to work out more for the rest of the week.. can't possibly let all my efforts go down the drain... i've been like pigging out for 2 days straight with no exercise.. dance dance dance!!! here i come :)

2008-08-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

hey hey! thought maybe i'd post more pictures.... :) for future references...:P
many pretty girls... tough competition k... *sigh*

2008-08-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

heeeee :) that's me!!!! ok..a rather late post.. but i guess i'm pretty happy.. made the top 20 and all...looking bloody fat in that photo... annoying... i'm like the odd one out in leggings...special! :) anyway, life's pretty much hectic now... gotta stop all these things soon once school starts... modelling and dance... arg!!! getting a thousand and one pimples on my face... bloody annoying.... never used to have this problem... shiiittttt!must be the lack of rest and excess junk food....

hmmm... anyway, vote for me k ppl? when my new paper spread comes out on the 20 something of this month :) support me!!!! haha... it's a thousand dollars for the title of miss popularity!!!! sad case... so i'm desperate for votes.. haha... it's gonna be fun since its a first time experience for me in a contest like this one... :)

btw, dance is gonna be tough!!! here comes my abs!!!! woohoo!!! ok... super random post... see ya!

2008-07-20T21:33:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. guess i haven't really updated in awhile.. been too lazy to log in.. hah. just how lazy can i really get. anyway, it figures, since nothing much has been hapening lately.. busy with all the unpacking and arranging of stuff cause we just shifted back to our newly renovated and yet problematic house.. i swear the contractors and the designers are assholes. i mean, it did cost us a bomb and the least we'd expect was a decent job done..

oh yea, i'm totally done with photo shoots for the TNPNF. next would be rehearsals non stop during the late september period. oh well.. vote for me ppl! think the individual spreads in the new paper will be out next month, 20th onwards if i'm not wrong.. and i'm one of the first few i suppose... height issues maybe?

dance starts tomorrow.. as in officialy for me. performance is in september too... oh dear.. plus we also have to perform for the opening of the new SIM hostel.. "the big bang" its such a weird title though... and they had to choose that of all titles. but there's a new dance studio there.. i haven't seen it yet... but i ain't complaining cause it's sure as hell gonna be better than dancing with black paper against a damn glass door. it's sad really. so here goes nothing.. many many activities to come... plus cuddles is going to the army soon too... gonna have to deal with that as well.......

2008-07-02T22:39:00.002+08:00

i got a swollen finger!!!!! and it hurts like shiiiiittttttt!!! like wtf! i don't know what happened or when it happened...don't remember a thing.... stupid shit!

anyway, on a brighter and much happier note... i got into the finals for the new paper new face contest!!! so start buying the papers ppl!! :) and vote for me k? well, if you want to at least. no pressure, i promise :P here comes the many photo shoots in the blazing heat... i swear the make up melts fast..i'm like some water fountain i tell you..lol..oh oh! did i mention that i had a pair of 200 dollar heels and a make over for free? now, i don't get that very often... not at all in fact.. i'd be crazy to buy myself heels that cost 200 bucks.. sheesh! can buy a hundred cheap pairs instead.. but they're so pretty!!! and damn glittery..i'm in love!! lol... 4 inch heels that i have to learn to cat walk in for the finals at takashimaya... better start practicing before i look like a complete idiot that day..haha.. and on a random note, i really liked my blonde hair!!! just watch me as i slowly change it back to how it originally was :)

2008-06-19T10:34:00.002+08:00

here come a RANDOM POST!!!! woohoo! 3 months vacation!!! yup, it does sound great.. but it's been rather unproductive so far. no job, no money, lacking things to do... what's a girl to do huh. just finished a whole day of shooting for some commecial on tuesday... left me really exhausted. john waited for me the whole time.. really appreciate it :)there's gonna be a second one on the 30th.. its good money i guess. mondays and wednesdays are for dance, but only in the evenings... so it's rather boring in the day. as for the rest of the week, hmmmm...haha.. can't say much. just hopefully it won't be like this for too long.

oh yea... made it through to the first round of the TNPNF last saturday... next round's this saturday at the subaru hub. wonder how far i'll go... not really confident of making it to the top few though... lots of competition... but i'll try:)

at the beginning with you.

2008-06-13T02:24:00.000+08:00

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Live is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

2008-06-04T01:38:00.002+08:00

hello snuggles
because you said you had no internet, i shall help you update.
where to start..
ahh yes the chalet! *ehem* time to do my safy impression.

HI EVERYONE!
i know i haven't been updating much, but i don't have internet at home still:( and when i do, i'm most probably too busy watching anime and not updating :P
anyway we had out chalet from thursday to saturday.
we had a blast right everyone?
baby and i went there early to hang out.
explored the place and found out they had alot of BLOODSUCKING MOSQUITO!
eeeeeeeee i don't like! so i went to buy a mosquito patch to keep them away from me
and it worked!!! but it gave cuddles a headache after a while. sorry babe:(
anyway we had the bbq at around 8pm because ms fairlyn tan was late.
after the food, we all went to wash up than proceeded to play cat and mouse
which was a drinking game!
we had lots of fun and i'm pretty sure most of us were high.
me in particular cause i drank till i had a headache resulting in baby staying up the whole night to take care of me. thanks alot cuddles<3 and i'm sorry :(
the next morning, we went to changi village for breakfast than we went to downtown east to book the movie tickets for prince caspian! had lunch, bowled and played arcade!
went back to sleep after.
dinner was at changi village.
ordered rice with dishes.
around midnight we went to watch the movie.
i swear i was very tired and i had difficulty keeping my eyes open.
i know baby and i panseng when we got back lol.
anyway all in all a good time =D
thanks everyone for making it enjoyable!

there hope it was safy enough,
babe you can make changes when you get your net back =D
love you lotssss!

-JAPE

2008-05-23T17:58:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!! yes it is! yes it is! it's now time to enjoy, have fun... yup, it seems like a really long time since i've had absolutely nothing to do :) here's to 3 months of fun,starting......NOW!!! woohoo!

IT'S THE 14TH OF MAY ONCE AGAIN!!!

2008-05-14T10:25:00.002+08:00

hey you, PCT!!!!!!!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO US CUDDLES!!!!!! 2 years and counting.. yup yup... it feels great :) *truckloads of hugs and kisses* here's to more fun and laughter together :p

I LOVE YOU <333 i'm looking forward to later yea? it'll be fun :)

so, just what is it about us ?

2008-04-30T09:30:00.003+08:00

people with never ending wants....are we ever completely satisfied with what we have? well i guess you can say it's pretty natural, but why can't we be? i mean, we've been like this the whole time.. was it really worth it? was it really worth going through all that we did? was it meant to be? can we really carry on being like this? can we handle, accept the past and accept each other for who we really are? well, yea, i know that whatever i've said is really random...yea, gibberish. but these were just the questions running through my head last night.its a mess really. i'm a mess. so yea.

on another note, exams are next week. i'm feeling really bummed out... i tell you its the worst combination ever. i mean, i'm supposed to be feeling really prepared and confident and all that.yet, i'm feeling kinda lousy. well, the aim was to do well for all my 3 years thats left of studying. don't know if thats feasible now.. gosh, i don't even have a proper gauge on my standard so far.

2008-04-23T19:39:00.002+08:00

i've got a brilliant boyfriend!!!! i love love love LOVE him!! he got me an internet connection!!! muacks muacks! well, at least i don't feel as pathetic now... no more desperation for the net for me :) anyway, i think i'm becoming fat. haven't been exercising much..... i want my abs :( getting my tummy back :( plus me getting hungry quick isn't helping. anyways, going back to school to collect the rest of my prelim papers tomorrow than i'm gonna meet my cuddles! lookin forward to that.... but i've got to study first... don't think i'll be getting the car for school tomorrow too since it has to go in for servicing... so yup, quoting cuddles : "PCC ".

i have no internet! sobs~~!

2008-04-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

i do not have any internet access at home because my dad doesn't want to subscribe to it.
i'm feeling very out of it somehow.
like my connection to the whole world has be severed.
it's been like 11 days and counting
and i am rotting!!
how?!?
i guess i shall drop over to cuddles's house one day and steal his internet
hehehe
remember babe, what your's is mine and what mine is mine
:)

ps: this is john posing as steph because she wanted me to sound like her when i updated this post for her. pcc

2008-04-04T10:10:00.002+08:00

i'm such a sad pig. i've completely no internet at home. so here i am in school updating. having a break now from PBF.... fucking boring btw. oh well, back to class for now. oh yea, my birthday's tomorrow... turning 15 :) hint hint!!!

happy 20th cuddles!

2008-03-19T22:18:00.002+08:00

lol... just came home from the birthday celebration.... had lots to eat at sizzlers... but now there's a huge hole in my wallet as a result. haha..oh well.... bought him some electric ball thingy which i thought was really cute.. glad he liked it :) he's like some kid in a body of a 20 year old...lol, we had fun i guess :) actually, what's most important is that he enjoyed himself... it's his special day. yup yup! lol..hmmmmmm.... well... i guess that was a rough summary of what went on today... lots of laughter, food, friends, cake and ice cream :) ahhhhh!!! now that's an unbeatable combination! lol.. muacks babe! happy 20th birthday once again! <333333333333333333